April 7th, 2013
Another day down, another teeny, tiny parargraph done on my lab report. Each and every sentence involved a gruelling effort...from Sean. They are his words, not mine. I certainly did not set out to have him do my homework for me, and he would never, ever agree to it either. But the end result is pretty much the same, since I needed hand holding, coaxing, scolding, threatening, cajoling, assurance and prodding for every damned word, plus some flat out instructions in a couple of places. He actually slapped my hand at one point for using the backspace key. I can't believe either of us has stuck with it this long. I wish I felt relieved that the writing part of my section is done, but it doesn't feel done at all. It feels like a mess. We didn't know what we were doing when we started the experiment, and so our hypotheses didn't make a lot of sense and I'm trying to cite material that makes that pretty clear. The subject is one of those ones where the lies-to-children version is so damned simple and obvious that it's hard to wrap your mind around why this is even a thing that people talk about, let alone do papers on...and then you read a little more and everything you ever knew was wrong and it turns out no one understands it and none of the things you've been taught are true/ In fact, in many cases, the exact OPPOSITE of the lies-to-children seems to be best supported by available evidence. Except the evidence is pretty meaningless, because no one can even agree on if this is a thing, how important it is, how to go about obtaining relevant data, if there is even the slightest chance of reliable extrapolation to real-world situations, the semantics of it all, or how not to fuck it up at the statistical analysis stage even if you've covered all the rest. Okay, Sean may have had a point: I may have spent a LITTLE too long poring over abstracts today.
In other news, we had a bald eagle in our yard today. That made me happy for a few minutes. We also have decent water pressure again since the plumber came. That should continue to make me happy whenever I turn on the water for a little while yet. Soon exams will be over and probably I will be less cranky when I someday don't have a cold again. There is hope.
It's kind of confusing being badgered so much about this by Sean. It's caused a lot of mini-fights, and it makes me feel like a petulant child and I'm sure that dynamic can't be good for a relationship, but it's kind of amazing to me that he hasn't given up. I keep trying to give up on myself, and waiting for him to too. He also amazes me in his ability to let go of the angry-face during the down time. It's a little good cop / bad cop and kind of weird me out a little, but I think I'd be getting vicious and bitter by now if the roles were reversed, so I am impressed by this kind of patience. I only have the teeth-gritting kind myself.
Just curious: is the instructor for this course kindly and mainly concerned that the students are plugged in and learning something? Or is he/she more of a by-the-book douche? If a douche, I would "reconstruct" the lost data to the best of my memory and just slap the thing together, because with douches, there's no telling what kind of grade you're going to get no matter what you do. And as for the academic integrity bit, it's not like you're making shit up to save yourself from work. Hell, your first paragraph above shows you've examined the problem from every conceivable angle and that you in no way spared yourself effort!
If your instructor seems nice and reasonable, then I might skip the reconstructing data part and just explain that the data was lost, and ask whether he/she could supply some data for analysis. Again, judging from your first paragraph, I believe you'd be able to discuss any type of data/result because you've already thought so deeply about it!
Anyway, sorry for the unsolicited advice, and I realize it's all so much easier said than done: I tended to procrastinate on homework to the bitter end and then some! *sympathy*
|Date:||April 7th, 2013 08:10 pm (UTC)|| |
My instructor is extremely nice, and I probably should have done exactly what you've suggested. It feels a little weird at this point, though, since the paper is already five days overdue. Also, my part was supposed to be the introduction and written part of the results. The methods, figures, and discussion have already been done by the others, with virtually no communication between us...yep.
No need to apologise for the advice; I appreciate you taking the time!
Group work is just the worst. Ugh.